Sunday Afternoon Tea

By on May 6, 2012

I have been pondering what to write this week… or perhaps how to write… after reading an inspiring post by Elizabeth Foss on the MotherHeart blog.* Elizabeth wrote about fear and trust and leaving a legacy to her children of overcoming fears of various kinds.

When I was very young, fear and anxiety were constant companions. Most probably a result of the trauma of my father’s sudden death when I was a child but also due to an atmosphere of anxiety among my family… fear was my inherited legacy.

I recall living in Married Student Housing soon after our wedding and panicking because my new husband was over an hour late coming home for dinner. Of course, now that we have been married for over thirty years… I know being late is a common occurrence for him, as is forgetting to call that he will be late.  🙂

Thankfully, I rarely have to deal with life-altering fear and anxiety much now. Oh, when one of the guys is late coming home and I hear an ambulance on country roads… or the tornado warning sirens are announcing a twister nearby… or I’m waiting for the results of medical tests… then the heavy feeling in the pit of my stomach returns.

But for the most part, I can stay pretty calm when the hurricane force winds of adversity are blowing through my life. What caused the change? Ummm… trials and suffering… no, really.

Because now I can look back over decades of His work in my life and I know He has never failed to protect and provide… perhaps not in the timing or the way I expected… but He has always been faithful.

I should have known this week was going to be interesting. One morning as I walked, I turned off the music on the itty bitty iPod and continued on with only the sounds of nature surrounding me. In the back of my mind, came that still small voice, as I was hearing the words, “Do you trust Me?”.

I must admit even after I realized it was Him whispering His question to my heart, I didn’t say “Yes, of course!”. It was much more a hesitant, “yes, of course…”.

Sigh… you know the rest as the praying I was doing that day had to do with lack of time and lack of resources and lack of energy and… stomping my feet before Him mumbling and complaining!

Oh, my circumstances are nothing compared to what He has allowed in the past and I hope never to have to walk through those fires again. But there He was, squeezing my fears of not enough all over again and wanting me to ask in faith and trust and when that happens…

…I have learned to look for His answers.

All He asks of us is that we trust Him and His Words and His character and His timing and His Will for our life. Faith and anxiety cannot live in the same house. One or the other will always become the dominant emotion we live with.

He tells us “There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear… the one who fears is not made perfect in love” (I John 4:18 NIV). I recall the day I was reading this and I realized just what it was saying!

I always thought I was the one who had to have perfect love (and I have perfect nothing). But as I looked closer at the passage and in its’ context in the Gospel of John, I realized I didn’t have to fear because He has perfect love!

My trust is to be in His character and in His perfect love towards me and mine. When both cars break down… He still provides. When company is coming… He provides.

When Christopher has to drive home from another town in the dark after borrowing Miss M.’s stick shift car (having only driven it once or twice before) and with only a few hours sleep the night before… He watches over him.

So… as I spend the next two weeks baking for the freezer and planting-weeding in the garden and working in my yard and stretching a dime into a dollar and preparing for guests and using my exercise DVD instead of walking the lovely trail… I can praise Him!

If this Sunday finds you in “less than perfect” circumstances, it doesn’t mean He has forgotten you or that He hasn’t answered your prayers. He is there and He is waiting to know you trust His perfect love!

Look for His answers.  🙂

* Elizabeth’s MotherHeart post can be found… here.

Originally posted on Coffee Tea Books and Me.

About Brenda Nuland

Brenda is a Midwestern wife, mother, and grandmother who loves to write about living a life of faith, books, tea time, decorating, frugal living ideas, homeschooling, and everything having to do with making life more beautiful - especially in the midst of difficult circumstances. Her blog: http://coffeeteabooksandme.blogspot.com/.

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Sunday Afternoon Tea